Once upon a time, there was a crown prince who was always told he would one day be King. Ever since he was born (or ever since he could remember his communications with his outside world), he was always painted the picture of what life would be like when he becomes king. Everything he did, every emotion he showed, people around him would bring him back into the future version of him, “this is what you will be when you become king”, “this is how you need to behave for you to be a great king when the time comes”.
The little boy felt so empty inside the space of the greatness of this future king.
His feelings of inadequacy were further amplified by hollow expectation. He felt that he does not hold enough substance to fill that void of the giant balloon he is to fit into. He felt he is never good enough to wear the Crown for there is just so much more he needs to have in order to meet the expectations of all the chattering voices around him, everyday, every moment. So he spent his days moping and fearing the wretched day he would be king.
This story arose as I was nursing a super sore thigh today – at first, just the left side, and then to the right side later in the day. It was a soreness that my TCM doctor resolved earlier in my life, years ago when I first moved back to Singapore. So it surfaced again, pretty much recalling similar situation and feeling as that earlier chapter of my life. How cool is that!
Apparently, a series of funny beliefs were created in that life with the crown prince, and they accumulated and stored in my thigh cells. The superficial flag started with, “it is strenuous to move forward in life”, and dug down deeper to “the weight of my future is too great for me”. In between the process were many other beliefs that had to be released and healed, replacing them with downloads in the likes of, “I am good enough for my future”, “I am worthy of respect/love/adoration/acceptance for who I am”, etc) to help him truly embrace himself for who he is, and then to really embrace his role as the king (rather than shunning, fearing that big gap). While coaxing him to not reject his present self without having to drop his important role for the future, the most interesting (and useful!) one was:
“I can be fully and truly me right now, while learning and growing into the future version of me.”
~ Download shown by the Creator during Session
Cool stuffs for the day. The soreness actually went away when I was done with it. I witnessed the boy getting out of his mopey state as we did the belief work, and he then went fully into his role of the king, filled with true hope, passion, confidence, love, excitement. It was fulfilling to watch his evolvement into full appreciation of this great blessing and gift to be King, thereby performing his role with joy, and being fully present in that.
Belief Work is fun. I had revisited so many stories, be it from a past life, or an ancestor’s, or sometimes it can even be a collective story that had grown so ingrained it even felt as though it was our life before. After clearing so many (even if I am referring to just my own belief work sessions…), I no longer know (nor care) whether it is me/mine anymore. The thing is, I might have been that crown prince; or I could also be that crown prince’s best friend who felt so much for every emotion he felt and they became part of my belief system too; or (taking to the extreme anecdotal end) it could even be some drama series that became ingrained one’s subconscious. To the very pragmatic me, it really does not matter whose story it belonged to (mine? another ancestor? some big-shot in the collective past?) ; what matters more is that all the obsolete beliefs get cleared out of the system.
We have to learn to see past all the dramas (what Vianna calls brain candy) and just extract the essence of what needs to be cleared and what needs to be substantiated. Many people tend to get hyped up about being King, Queen, Cleopatra, Sage, etc and get all entangled in the drama of it all. It is okay to enjoy the story as it unfolds, but sometimes getting overly hyped into it may hold one’s current conscious minds back from fully letting go of it. (E.g.”Was I really the King?”, “how can that be?”, and any of these denial does not really help one with the acceptance and henceforth the healing that comes with it?). On the more pragmatic or productivity side of the equation, I am looking more at: If you know how many lives there are to clear, you probably would want to be more effective about it and just work on the essence instead of swirling in the soap operas.
<3 Are you ready to heal and move forward with ease and grace? <3
Gentle reminder here to let our own light shine. Here quotes a paragraph from Marianne Williamson's A Return to Love. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
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